Calluzi Queen

July 31st, 2008 by simone

At the moment I have a large bruise
On my shin,
I fell over a drag queen. At Calluzi bar,

I was pleased she was Talking to me,

That night she was my hero,
To be free, to be so elegantly
And so expressively wounded and
Distasteful of convention,

I told myself

Beneath the barbed witticisms exchanged
By her and her generously proportioned co-host
There must be some comradery, there must
Be an element of trust, in each other more so

Than a world which has cast them in harsh relief

She showed me some footage on her
Mobile of her and a footballer’s erection

What a beauty to know one’s place in the world.

My feet that night ran away with me
And my mouth, and my hungry hungry booze stomach
Which yawned and pleaded with me to be fed
Pleaded until I poured wine without tasting it

I hope it will lead - Me to what I want.

I want to lose my presumptions and precursory freedom
It is not real freedom

sex and the old man

July 25th, 2008 by oscar

Sex and the older man

As an illness settles in my body, things I took
for granted have now disappeared, say, like
a proper morning erection.
Slack and shriveled I have to sit down to pee,
less I soil the front of my trousers.
Sex for the aged is up (pardon the pun) and
running, many aged have sex trice a week,
I read in the paper. Old men bragging, ask their
wives, who will giggle, say their men are
dreaming. Sex isn’t that important a celibate
once said, (how would he know?) yet, I agree
on the scale, of interesting things to do I rate
sex only at nine and a half… the tenth used to
be a smoke after it is done.

summer paradise

July 25th, 2008 by oscar

Summer Paradise.

It was a beautiful Sunday at the beach, sea and sand
everyone wanted a deep tan, not many swam water
still restless after yesterday’s storm. A pair of ten
years old gypsy girls whose parents live in a camp
nearby, braved the waves but soon got into trouble
and as many looked on the girls were swept away.
When life guards brought them back ashore they had
both drowned. In the midst of life they lay covered
by a beach towel, arms and legs sticking out just like
rag dolls. What could we do, the beach was crowded,
this people’s day off, and no one knew the dead girls.
Four men came, carrying one coffin, the girls so tiny
space, even for one more child. A tawny looking ice-
cream seller came hobbling along I saw his tears, if he
was related to the girls he shouldn’t go about selling
stuff and thinking of making money (no one is that
poor) but go home and grief with the family

murmur from the east

July 25th, 2008 by oscar

http://www.freewebs.com/lapwingpoetry/

is the title of my latest collection from Lapwing publishers

Belfast

http://waterforestpress.com/Books/EndOfTheVoyageJanOHansen.htm

 

http://wwwYouTube.com/user/345bambi

Summer Paradise

July 25th, 2008 by oscar

Summer Paradise.   

 

It was a beautiful Sunday at the beach, sea and sand everyone wanted a deep tan, not many swam water still restless after yesterday’s  storm. A pair of ten years old gypsy girls whose parents live in a camp nearby, braved the waves but soon got into trouble and as many looked on the girls were swept away. When life guards brought them back ashore they had both drowned. In the midst of life they lay covered by a beach towel, arms and legs stic
king out just like
rag dolls. What could we do, the beach was crowded, this people’s day off, and no one knew the dead girls. Four men came, carrying one coffin, the girls so tiny space, even for one more child. A tawny loo
king ice-
cream seller came hobbling along I saw his tears, if he was related to the girls he shouldn’t go about selling stuff and thin
king of ma
king money (no one is be that
poor) but go home and grief with the family       

Visit to the British Museum with Pete Green.

July 24th, 2008 by vicwest49

The humaneness beaten
And flamed
Into that museumed
Grecian mask
Was the same sorrow
And wisdom
I had seen
On the faces of the Madonnas,
Framed with rocks,
By Da Vinci.
Though it was the first time,
I had seen such life in that bronze,
I was not,
After that morning’s joy,
At such loving laughter,
Surprised.
Brothers and sisters with us all.
Such makers
Whose names we may
Or may not know.
And the many,
Who in so many living ages
Will have seen so much.
I beam in the companionship
Of Pete Green,
And the hurrahs of saints.

Vic West

one morning

July 24th, 2008 by oscar

One Morning…

Dawns silence gives me comfort,
My night has been restless, showing
In sharp black& white, movies of
The bygone; till bitter regret awoke
Me and filled me with dread of
The future. A door opens and shuts,
Steps in the hall and a car starts,
Tells me I’m not alone, and as dark
Gives way to light, my past slowly
Regresses. To day I will not be sad.

love’s sorrow

July 24th, 2008 by oscar

Love’s Sorrow

The silent distance between us whispers,
A widening plateau of the unspoken as
Pale starlight shimmers on leafless trees.

The river of love ran dry it never met
The ocean, a twig snapped in the apple
Orchard as tears flow inwards.

Barn Dance 1887

July 24th, 2008 by oscar

Barn Dance Wyoming 1887

My dream was to be a cowboy I had seen
movies of big men in Stetson hats riding
into town from the vast plain ready to take
on the bad guys. Then I saw a picture of
men dancing with each other the caption
said they were cowboys a bunch of filthy
looking men and none of them wore guns.

I went to sea instead and it is bigger than
the plains of Texas combined, but it’s all
water and keep changing hue; and horses
were made of sea spray and harbour bars
had no swing doors. I do realize, sadly,
life is more complex than a boy’s dream
of celluloid heroes shooting holes in the sky

Paris Mon Amour

July 24th, 2008 by oscar

Paris Mon Amour

I’m going to Paris in the fall, last time I was there
it was a June, I feel into the Seine when I waved
to a girl who walked on its other side. Two days
I hung on a hook behind a door that led down to
a wine cellar, drying out; people were rude to me
because I didn’t speak French and ever since I get
easily offended when I hear Parisians laugh.

Paris in September, is melancholia, I’m a guest at
a white wedding to a couple I have never met; yet
I’m worried I sense a Sagan type tristesse as when
rain fall like gentle sorrow, trickling down a girl’s
soft cheek; blue twilight and the whisper of fallen
leaves. What do I know? Whatever, happens I must
be careful not to fall into the Seine

literature &alcohol

July 24th, 2008 by oscar

Literature & Alcohol

Poor Edgar his world was dark, laughter was
a gasp on dying lips. He mined the deepest
ravine where not even the summer sun reaches
but he was able to, in moment of clarity that
lit up his tunnel, to give us great literature,
a look into his world of horror.

There are other Edgars who walk in our streets
or sit in lonely rooms wearing a cape of despair,
their laughter too is a shriek of agony, a bitter
smile set in a pale face of utter defeat, for they
cannot articulate and share with us or turn their
suffering into a readable literature.

A Standing Flower

July 20th, 2008 by foofoo1081

A beautiful curve
made by a flower
standing in the midst
of nowhere.
In every minute
and in every hour,
she faces life
with the least care

Winter Warmers - review

July 20th, 2008 by Editor

Check out review and multimedia coverage of Winter Warmers - a very charming and vital event Saturday afternoons at the Auckland Art Gallery.  And while we are looking at things - am trying out various new themes for the next cover page.  Before we select one, we will check it here.  So don’t worry - if the Golden Gate (palam11 theme) returns - am testing functionality, then will settle on one (I like the seaside one, but there is a functional problem with navigation…) - the site will work and accept your submissions or it will be tested, here.  Comments - is this seaside template too much, do ya think?

Thoughts of a Hopeless Person

July 20th, 2008 by foofoo1081

An empty space…
And a million thought spinning,
Spinning in a limitless circle
Over my vulnerable head.
I tried to neglect them
Even tried to run instead
They tell me to do things
Things I’m not used to do
Telling me to go, go to nowhere
To a place where people,
At least most of them
Would never look or care.
It has been months
It has been years
Since I last tasted freedom
My mind is bound to a time
Which, by far, will never come
I had enough of all notions
And the colorful meanings
of roses, rainbows and hope…
For me, the sun is never bright
And is always tied with a rope
They told me freedom is coming
But I saw no freedom
They told me misery will not last,
And that days will run fast
Yet here I am standing still
With no power or will,
but the sole choice
of tracking back my thoughts..
My million thoughts..
And go to nowhere.
Though I couldn’t yet comprehend
Is death worth to try?
Is it not true that,
a descent kind of life
is nothing but a lie?

Dear Mother

July 20th, 2008 by foofoo1081

I get up every morning
And see red flowers
By the window of my chamber
The very spot in which
You read me stories,
is now standing with no curve
Despite the long years.
I grew up with a soft smile
Whenever I see your face
Your lap and arms
Have always been
My safest place
Dear mother
You give me life
When I see you walking
with steady pace
Dear mother
Though you’re near
I long for you.
You kept me strong
And walked me through,
This immense life.

a friend whose always there

July 19th, 2008 by angelfelices

When I’m down
your always there to lift me up
when i cry
your there to wipe away my tears
when i close my eyes
your the only one who comes
in my mind…
when i fall asleep
your the one i dreamed about
when i was hurt and in pain
your the one who cheers me up
when i felt like dying because of
the things bothering my mind..
your always there to understand
and comfort..

your always there for me,
even in my darkest dreams..
your proud in every piece of thing
i achieved…

thanks coz you care
thanks coz your always there
to stay…

various poems

July 10th, 2008 by oscar

The Trust

When the azure far mountain smokes Turkish
blend that is a whisper in the air as a stream
meanders amongst clover, leafy trees and
pretty flowers. And the sea is liquid mirror that
reflects the blue sky and wooly lambs graze on
a heavenly canvas. That’s when we love nature
and give thanks to an absent god.

When the sea rages, sinks ship and lashes shore
tsunami waves, and Thor wields his hammer and
sends embers fly through the night, streams burst
banks and drown flowers, and the mountain blasts
darkens the sky and the earth trembles. We start
over again build a cathedral to honour the absent
one; blaming god is a waste of time.

The Time of Dreams.

Harbour light a welcomed sight, weeks
of ennui, when days reluctantly drag
themselves from dawn to dusk; a day
in the middle of the Pacific is twice as
long as a day in Brussels, where bustle
makes the clock tick faster

Zombies on tank a rusty tanker’s deck
gripped by a melancholic loneliness
they cannot shake off even long after
leaving the sea. Lost souls doomed to
pace the long shores of life and dream
the impossible

The Precious

Diamonds on her manicured,
Elegant fingers have the look
Of petrified pain,

The price one has to pay
For a flawless beauty that last
long after agony is forgotten.

Gem stones on my mind are
Remembered, but their sheen
Have gone,

Frozen capsules of what
Was once a longing to love,
That now has lost its passion

Only a onyx of reflective
Melancholy glimmers in
Shadowland

Denial.

Morning dread, something said
Last night that should have been
Unsaid, the smell of lonely sex
And an empty bottle under the bed

Sunlight tries to break in through
Tears in tobacco yellow curtains,
Expose dust on dead plants and
Spot of rot on night’s red roses

My conscience troubles me, it’s
The only thing of moral left, if
I wake up without guilt one day
Will I be free to run away?

Morning in Dreamland

My street is a tunnel of
Whispering night that
Sighs-dies as dawn
Sneaks in from the east

My garden’s miasma
Gracefully arises and
Disperses, tears on
Blades of green grass.

The sun gleam reaches
Over a wall, dry morning
Sorrow as a joyous child
Awakes and laugh.

A Dog’s Night.

From a square light on a dark
Tenement building words fell
Hit the street, rolled on dust
Like morning phlegm.

A dog sniffed broken syllables
Licked a few individual letters,
Spat, the heat of lingering anger
Was not to its liking

Looked up, waited for morsels
Of human wisdom to rain,
To fill its starving mind…this
Long violent night.

A Spare Moment

Inside the green-house
I laid out wizened roses
Heat and the smell of
Dead nature made clear
Not to waste tears on
Infertility, as the beauty
Of dust sparkle in shafts
Of light and dance.

Epitaph.

None existence
Is the aftermath
Of death,
Who fears?
The long sleep
When there is
No night.
To be
Never born
Is bliss.
Fear not my
Brother
No evil shall
Touch you.
Life was but
A brief
Interlude on
Your way to
Nirvana

The Pauper

The lame gypsy who begs at the traffic-light
hasn’t got a fucking chance a man so tested
by life’s vagary that even a slum priests look
another way and think of Sunday sermons
and afternoon tea in the garden of the rich
who donate money to his charity. I sense that
behind his inane smile, there is a green of
mockery and deep in his stupid, amber eyes
a burning hate flicker I think he is an angel
who made fun of god, expelled from heaven
dumped on earth and cruelly stigmatized.

death in the afternoon

July 10th, 2008 by oscar

Death in the Afternoon

There was a poor black lady, who lived in a city slum,
got ill and sought help at the local hospital. Tolerantly
she waited, but because she was poor and also quiet,
was ignored till she fell off her chair and in agony died.
Guards who saw her, thought she was asleep or drunk,
even in death she was disregarded till her body began
to reek in the hot air of despair and decay. Don’t blame
badly paid staff, for them too the American dream is
nightmare, a pay packet away from hunger, prisoners
of a capitalist system where the winner takes all, live
long, feeding on the corpses of the poor. Yet, the guard
and the orderly hope that someday they will be rich too.
The dream will only come true if they united fight and
win. Banal ignorance makes the unequal system survive.

7th shade of grey (birthday)

July 3rd, 2008 by phoenixtheory

hello you,
as my eyes burn to a red dust
my chest swallows whole
as you take my breath away
again

 

morning,
as my lungs explode
breathless and withered
its your voice that keeps me alive
once again

 

goodnight,
your nowhere to be seen
just a memory replying the days with you
and still you’ve become a part of me
no not again

 

get away,
before its an obsession
my hand in yours isn’t a symbol
its a life i want to live.

 

how do you make me feel the way i do?
and it just so happens to be the way i want it to be

 

 

 

Work Of Jeff Wong “Phoenix theory”

never look back

July 2nd, 2008 by oscar

Never Look Back.

The hamlet was quiet, dogs asleep,
on this rainy afternoon’s spring day
when I said adieu.

Ten years I dad spent here, good
sad and lonely days, whitewashed
walls and green weed in sunlight

An abundance of flowers in pain
pots and rusty buckets by doorways
their beauty…a sad heartache.

I lingered, so did the day, hoped
someone would come out and say
no one did, the silence dripped.

I drove through the dreamy vale’s
Scented air and reached the coast
as night fell. The sea was calm.

Le Grand duc

July 2nd, 2008 by oscar

Le Grand Duc

Is a café in Brussels where everyone know each
other and there are kisses and handshakes many
times a day. I sat reading my newspapers when
I remembered that the brother of the queen of
Belgium had been a playboys and a pianist, who
didn’t get to be famous before his sister married
the king. I thought him a sad man, with a thin
mustache, he smiled often, but the humour never
reached the eyes. Then he faded out of the picture
I don’t know why, he wasn’t really the material
of a man linked to easy women and platitudes, he
knew he was only a mediocre given engagement
through his connections. So he died then a man
who never got to live the life he wanted to.

the wedding

July 2nd, 2008 by oscar

The Wedding

Brussels national airport is designed by a fitness fanatic
or a sports committee, I walked for miles to find its exit
I needed a whisky after all this travail but they had none,
settled for a beer, and yes, it was cold and refreshing.

I took a taxi, expensive, the journey ended at a small inn,
near the national Basilica, the inn was still serving food
I had a sausage and drank a few more beers went to bed
and dreamed about the summers of my childhood.

Brussels in summer light is attractive, mainly because of
its architecture and many trees which make any citycape
more beautiful, glad the Belgians like trees, but I would
have liked to see the trees look more natural and at ease.

In the morning next day I visited the basilica. It was built
after the second world war in honour of the war dead, it
is the most impressive religious edifice I have ever seen,
and it represented all that is good in our hearts.

Tomorrow I’m going to a wedding it’s an African affair,
people will be in good mood, food laughter, music and
and plenty of wine; but today I will walk around, look at
houses and people… and, of course, drink a few beers