From the crest of a wave
falling
falling
as hard and as dark as hell.
Everything is above me
swirling out of control.
My screams echo silently,
nobody is there,
no one will take me away.
It consumes me
taking away everything that is mine.
Taking the lot
leaving behind splinters of pain.
And still, after so long I am struggling
and fighting and stumbling,
grappling with all that is me.
Even the highs are tainted
baiting me, not letting up.
Can I say I have lost control
Did I have it to begin with.
My life is a lie, a dirty cavernous secret.
The monster that lurks within
took away everything.
Before I had realised - it was all gone.